Well, all well ends well, I guess.

I’ve move my blog site over to http://kanzaki84.multiply.com/. You guys can reach it by clicking the URL or for those who can’t see the link…

CLICK HERE
(You need to get your eyes check.)

Like I said, all well ends well, but its not the end, I’ve just moved my site that’s all. Geez

The old stuffs will still be here for reading and reference (my reference that is.), so don’t worry, this blog is till on go.

- posted by Brandon @ 9:17 pm

Was watching Prince of Tennis when I got home early from class today. Man, the match between Sanada and Ryoma was definitely the climax of the whole tournament! I had waited so long for their match to begin!


Sanada from Rikkaidai and Ryoma for Seigaku. Who will win?

Both of them showed superb tennis play and well, for once, I was actually cheering in my heart and supporting Seishun Gakuen! Talk about mixing reality with fantasy! But heck, it was really breathtaking, and for that one moment I was wondering how on earth Ryoma was going to win this match. (Coz I’ve already know that Seigaku will win.) But nonetheless, Ryoma won, and he won with style!!


Ryoma: Winning is one thing, winning with style is another!

Well, enough of being hyper over an Anime…. It’s so not me.

- posted by Brandon @ 8:31 pm

If there is one thing I need now, it’s for someone to slap me on the face.

Seriously,

Slap me.

Sometimes, when it is hurting to know what you believed in has become questionable, you beliefs shaken, your faith demolished. What I had believed in thus far, in myself, in my enthusiasm, my determination, my views, my goals, my dreams, and also my personality. I for one never thought I have a perfect characteristic, never… but I had the self confidence, not shown, but possessive in heart.

Let’s just say I’ve made those criteria questionable.

Sometimes, when you do or say something, you say it for the sake of saying it, or you just feel like saying it… well lets just say, folks don’t try this in real life. Coz behind the curtain, you might be hurting some other’s feelings, unknowingly.

Whilst it is bad enough to be such a loud mouth and regurgitating the same old shits over and over again, it is worst to see others cry for your conduct.

Man, never did I ever want these kind of shits to happen.

Sometimes, it just come to my senses that, “hey dude, you should just fucking shut up and talk at the right time. You words are making hell lots of shits for others to bear with”

Yeap, I knew it. Me and my big mouth.

Of course, I should know better to dig out old shits and bring them back on the table.

And I though I was amongst the considerate ones.

Now all I want is to dig a hole and just fucking stay in it.

- posted by Brandon @ 12:51 am

It’s been almost a week since I even bothered to touch my blog… a reminder to all, I’m not dead yet.

Events throughout the week were as calm as ever, I’m starting to wonder whether my life is really THAT peaceful.

Valentines went well, nothing much too intricate about. Of course, the details are for me to know and you busy body jerks to find out.



At last I got my hand on Box 5 of Prince of Tennis. Now I can continue from where I left the series… and believe you me, I got lots to catch up on. I’m starting to find the story taunting, slightly too long winded, and also lack of serious creativity… each scene is like a cut and paste from the previous ones…. Anime these days aren’t as genuine as the old days, where each and every scene is well drawn. No special CGs, no high tech computer generated 3D graphics, just plain old man drawn art work. Of course, I got to admit there are good ones out there in the market too.

Got addicted to Anime songs… been downloading like mad during my free hours. The problem with it is that the recent songs are some how or rather, not my taste. Is it me, or is it that Anime songs nowadays are getting from bad to worse. Of course, sentencing a suspect to jail before actual trial ain’t my way of doing things, so I still download them and have a go with them. Well, being the plain old me, even after a go with the songs, they still went straight into the Recycle Bin after that.

Too much in mind, too little time to think.

Plenty to revise, too little time left.

Having lots in the wanted list, not enough allowance to spend.

Lots of self induced pressure, yet too lazy to rethink.

…………………………………………..

No point complaining, I did it #2786361317647816 times already, yet the problem remains.

- posted by Brandon @ 11:39 pm

There are times when I feel that I am concealed in a box. A box which is so small, I can barely breathe…

I am so, so tired with it.

Sometimes, when it seems like everything is within your control, it just slips off your hand and leaves you.

I could barely see where it is going…

Sometimes, when it seems that I have a perfect family, with understanding parents, close as friends’ siblings, but everything just a mirage…an illusion. In reality, stubbornness, conservativeness, and misunderstandings occur.

Sure, I know it happens in every family.

At this moment, I really feel like singing the song “perfect” by Simple Plan… man that song tells it all. “I can’t believe it’s hard just to talk to you, but you don’t understand…” for a freaking moment, I just wish that I can have a 5 minute talk with my parents without them nagging at me with the same old shits that I’ve been hearing for the past 21 years.

Come on guys…..

Give me a break, I respect you guys more than anything in this world, but I think I deserve some respect too. If you wish to be respected, please respect me too. I’m your son, the more I deserve some little respect in the family.

Sometimes, it might seem that my decision is wrong, but behind the action, there is always a justification. And if you guys would sit down and listen before yelling at me, I’m sure the explanation will be much of satisfactory.

If they would just put themselves in my situation, and see it in my view….. Everything would be so much easier…. Well, I guess it’s near impossible for them to do that. Parents will always be parents.

I hope I don’t end up like them. Coz it sucks

- posted by Brandon @ 11:46 pm

Just when I thought I know myself better than the number of pimples I have on my face, some one else knows me better than my own self..... scary.....

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LIBRA MAN (September 23-October 22)
A man who has no balance like his Zodiac symbol. He is not the gentle, cool, calm and charming guy like what you see. He has another dark side of aggression, stubborn and he likes to start an argument the most. Sometimes he can be so depress and unstable. Up and down like he is trying to balance himself most of the time.

To many people, he is a friendly guy and always smiles even when he is mad or up set. His voice always gentle and calm. He always set and comb his hair as if he comes out from a shampoo advertisement. Mostly Libra men are good looking, even the ugly one is charming. When he smiles, it is so bright that the whole world is smiling with him too.

When he is in a balance mood, he is the type of person you want to be with. In other unbalancing mood, he likes to make people argue about something and watching it with fascination and fun. He will wait to be the one who compromise and clear thing up. He likes to be in a conflicting conversation.

Libra man is lazy by nature. After his tired day at work, he likes to sit still and just look out of the window or read quietly. He likes to be in his own world. After recharging his battery, he will be very energetic again and may even take you out that night.

Libra man normally will not do any shocking or abnormal things to be noticed. He likes to be conformed to his crowd, but if you watch him carefully, you will see the different. If he wears a shirt, it will have to be a zipper front instead of buttons, or a special tie bar. There is always something in him that he will not allow totally conformity to take him over.

A straight forward, no nonsense guy. He is careful and delicate in details. He will spent extra time to doing it right, than comes back to correct them later. He hates people who boost, or exaggerate. He does not like over dressed woman or make herself a center of an attention.

He loves to read. He loves poems and loves art. When he works he can work like crazy, but after work he can turn on romantic jazzy music and treat you so gently. He loves to give people advice and normally give a good advice. If you fall for him, you will stay like being trapped in a spider web. If you want to break up with him, he will persuade you a zillion ways to stay and you can not stop him anyway. After he persuades you to stay, or after a big fight, he will be so sweet to you as if he has never hurt your feeling before ever.

He will have his own way to win a girl love and affection. Once she says yes, he will lay back and wonder if he should go on or if he should back out. In his teen, he changed many girl friends because he can not clearly separate loving a friend and loving a girl friend. He will check and re-cheek if his match is suitable and compatible with him.

Even he is a romantic man; he can hardly understand the emotion of the one he loves. He is a generous guy even he sets his life so systematically. He never knows when he makes you unhappy. He never knows how he up set you. He will never know what he said wrong. If he is your lover, be prepared for this.


A not so pretty girl with no brain is not his type of woman. If you are not pretty enough, he will not mind talking to you but he does not care to get to know you. Any girls, pretty or ugly can ask for his help, he will be happy to help. He hates to argue by yelling at each other, so you tend to see he argue with his girl friend seriously but try at best to be very quiet.

He likes to have a girl friend by getting to know each other like a friend first. If you want him, you have to like the same thing he does. He prefers a pretty and gentle woman than a smart and ugly woman. You have to understand his mood especially he can has many different moods. He is a private person, so when he needs to be alone better let him be.

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This is just too true to be true.... I got shocked myself too... Oh, and millions of thanks to Chidori who directed me to my "true" self. Thanks for revealing my true form to the world.

- posted by Brandon @ 12:48 am

I haven’t got the time to do massive updates recently, coz it’s getting near to Chinese New Year, and when CNY is around the corner, it means, house cleaning, grocery shopping, cloths purchasing, and also money spending. (ish….)

This year, CNY would be rather be quiet for myself and also my family, due to the reason that my mom can’t move too much after a major operation early this year.

Nonetheless, CNY celebration will still go on like the usual, and family members will still gather and have a nice reunion dinner.

So much so that I never did like to have reunions with those part of the family members, but still it wouldn’t hurt to see them once in a year, just to let them know I’m still alive and kicking, and they curses and damnation didn’t work on me.

But then, they “sincerity” of giving me ANG PAUs and also their “hospitality” by inviting us over for dinner, well, I guess even bad guys have a sense of kindness once in a year during this festive season.


Following close with CNY, is Valentines Day. Erm, I wouldn't elaborate much on it, due to the sole reason that it’s a day I just couldn’t really put it in words. In short, its such an indescribable day. (oh well…)

All the best to all my friends who’s reading this crap, all my foes who’re still trying very, very hard to bring me down and see my humiliated face in the public, my love ones, and also my family. Happy Chinese New Year, folks.

I’ll be happily collecting my ANG PAUs, and then sadly send them into the bank…. Like always… *sigh*



- posted by Brandon @ 10:43 pm